I spent October 2020 - February 2021 at the Goddess Temple in Georgia. This was a powerful and somewhat confusing time for me. Several intense happenings occurred.
1. Aru stepped on a Copperhead snake, was bit in the back foot and almost died. Whitewolfe had the presence of mind to apply a tourniquet to his leg. We knew he would die on the way to the next town over (almost an hour away) so we all did energy work on him and prayed for his survival. I have never heard an animal scream and cry in pain the way he did and I hope I never hear that again. Whitewolfe carried him into the bus and me and the girls got to work. I held Aru as Marly and Wakanda took turns singing light language and moving energy. I literally watched the poison get drawn out of his body. Whitewolfe removed the tourniquet after half an hour. Every once in a while I would give him a handful of water to drink. At one point I did a journey and dream-walked to find his spirit. He seemed very far away. I saw him in a forest that was dark grey and the forest floor was covered in snakes. I said to him "You are walking with snake medicine now. Very powerful medicine. Do not be afraid." He said back to me "I don't like how my body is feeling." I said "It's ok. Don't fight it. Just breathe and it will move through you." At that exact moment he took a deep breath and moaned. Keep in mind he had been crying and moaning for hours up to this point! I had my face next to his head and the heat radiating from his head was so hot and intense. My arm where I cradled his head was soaked from his slobber. I stayed with him in this snake infested scene until my vision became clearer. At the same exact moment Wakanda stopped singing. I said "He's back" and she said "I know." For the remainder of the day, the family took turns sitting with him and singing to him and by the evening he was thumping his tail in the bed every time someone came in to take their shift. His healing was definitely a group effort. By the next day he was running around like nothing happened. Well, he had a little limp but that was it. I knew after I journeyed with him that he was my dog and we were meant to be together. He had been initiated into Snake medicine. 2. We were super excited about creating a community and I had already connected to the land through service and finding a rare plant that was medicine that we all needed. I was raking the path to the space that would become a red tent temple when I heard "Hey, look over here". I was alone and it was very subtle. That is how I stumbled upon Ghost Pipe medicine. When I looked up what it was it just so happens to be exactly what everyone needed. All the males in our group were suffering from open sores believed to be merca. The land told me that when we tend to the land with love and gratitude in service the land will "speak" to us and show us her treasures. This happened about a week after we arrived. Shortly after I walked down to the creek and built the medicine wheel. When the land chose where I should place the medicine wheel I had inadvertently picked the oldest and biggest tree on the 18 acres of land as the center of the wheel. I had fallen in love with the land and hoped to stay there indefinitely. 3. The family that I traveled with from Mt. Shasta split up in November. Two of our group went on to do something else while Wakanada, Chibago and I tried to make it work. It was an intense few weeks of growth, preparing the land to become a goddess temple, a place of refuge. Some of us had been involved in intentional communities before and some like myself had not experienced that kind of living before. It was there that I learned how NOT to create a community. In an intentional community there must be clarity, trust and above all else communication. It was during a very heated exchange where I was not allowed to speak in response to what was thrown at me that I realized my time had come to a close. I was just waiting for the right time. For several weeks I went back and forth even though my heart knew it was time to go. I was so in love with the land. I had spent every night dreamwalking and clearing/healing the land. As I walked in the forest I asked the spirits of the forest "What do you want me to do? Should I stay or should I go?" the spirits of the forest responded "You are connected to us where-ever you go." That was it. No yes or no. Just "You are already connected." A few weeks later I found myself packing up my most prized possessions into my newly acquired van in the middle of the night. The next morning I took my friend Chibago and we headed north to drop of Wakanda's dog to her in Illinois. As I said goodbye to the kids I said to Neo "I'll be back. I promise." He gave me a funny half smile (he knew) and waved a sweet goodbye to me. I had every intention of coming back to try to make this work but once I got on the road my heart said "You're never going back." I will never forget that beautiful place and will be forever grateful to the goddess on the land and her children even though it didn't work out.
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August 10th, 2020 - September 21st, 2020
Mt. Shasta is known for many things including star being encounters. There have been many reports of UFO's over the mountain. The Lemurian city of Telos is reported to be inside the mountain. There are many sacred spiritual sites spread out along it's slopes. Several intersecting ley lines and rivers underneath gives the mountain it's incredible manifesting powers. It has always been a long standing place where indigenous peoples of the area would gather for sacred ceremonies and meetings with each other and star beings. During my six week camping stay on the mountain I was able to manifest everything I needed to survive. It was so amazing. Every time I said I wanted something, bamm! there it was. After a few weeks I said to every one I met "Someone is going to give me a van!" Then I let it go. If it's meant to be, it will come. I also had many crazy intense spiritual experiences including an encounter with a very dark and negative spirit in Twin Arrows. For those you can listen to my Podcast "The Shaman Files" or read my book when it comes out. One story that I will share here: One afternoon on the mountain we had a wicked storm roll in. All my friends had left the mountain to either travel home or look for jobs. It was my first night alone and I was a bit lonely and sad. Later that evening as I lay in my sleeping bag I heard what sounded kind of like a plane but it didn't. There were loud clicking noises and various tones that I had not heard of before. I thought "What the hell is that?" The sound got closer and closer. It was so loud that the ground was literally shaking below me. It sounded like this "plane" was directly above my tent. It was so incredibly loud. My whole body was vibrating from the weird sound. I sat up quickly, pointed to the top of my tent and froze! I was not able to move my body. I wanted to throw myself out of my tent to look up but I couldn't move a muscle. It was like something put a weird freeze ray on me - lol. Then as quickly as the sound came it was gone and my body was released. I shot out of my tent and looked up. I saw nothing but clear sky (so it wasn't a plane muted by the clouds). There were no ships or planes anywhere in sight. There was no way that something could have moved away that quickly (within seconds). After my four month stay in Canada my journey resumes in the Pacific Northwest, Oregon. I stayed in Las Vegas for three weeks upon my return from Canada. I couldn't see my parents due to city wide lockdowns. It was a shock to the system to be back in a large city months after the world went on notice from Mother Nature. After three weeks of couch surfing with various friends I had the intense urge to leave the city for good. I had to get back into the forest. It was calling me. On Wednesday I saw a Lakota Sundancer and Inipi ceremony leader for a healing session. She looked at me and said "You like to plan stuff don't you?" I replied yes. She said "You're going to need to work on that." Then she said "You don't like to ask for anything do you?" I said "No, I don't (besides healing from others)." She laughed and said "Yeah, you're going to need to work on that too." --- Kambo & Kampout (somewhere out in the Juniper Forest near Bend, UT) 7/30/20-8/2/20 Lion's Gate event (somewhere out in the Juniper Forest near Bend, UT) 8/6/20-8/10/20 ---The next morning, I jumped out of bed, rented a car one way, dropped off my shit at the storage unit, packed some clothes, crystals and a tent. Then I stopped at the assisted living center to say goodbye to my parents then took off. I went west and out of my way and stopped in Joshua Tree Forest to do a hape session with my Cherokee friend before heading north to Oregon. I arrived in Oregon late Friday evening (I got lost on the way there) so I missed the opening ceremony. I ended up leaving with a group of amazing beings when they invited me to travel with them. That is how I ended up in Mt. Shasta for 6 weeks (half the summer). You can read more about the epic beginning of my journey of traveling by road from 2020 - present in my upcoming book. Pictured below is the cliff I camped on top of in Oregon at the intense indigenous ceremony that I stayed at for about 10 days. The tent and the lava tubes underneath are near the Three Sisters mountains in Oregon. This is where I attended my first Ecstatic Dance. A very powerful experience had right before Lion's Gate portal. Will never forget it. As I sit and reflect on ceremony last night with Cree medicine men, I am reminded of the sacredness of all plants and their powerful medicine. In particular I was thinking about my long-standing relationship with psychedelics, how I used them before, the decades long break while raising my son then the inevitable return of their presence when students of mine started asking me to take them on medicine journeys. How did they know? I wasn't particularly happy with their return. My thinking is that I always feel connected to spirit and can see very well without their aid, thank you very much. I have done the work. However, here they are. So I began to question why again. Clearly my journey with Ayahuasca has been incredibly beneficial to my healing. I call it “The Great Heart Opening.” The spirit of Aya has thrown me into the world of vegistalismo and I talk to the plants now just as much as I do the animals. Through these conversations I have learned what to eat to heal my body. This connection has crossed over into the psychedelic plant realm. I know them now on a different level. I have been “spoken to” about my misuse in the past, Through sometimes painful, always powerful, recent experiences I have been shown how intention is key and respect is a must. I believe they have come back to my life in order to teach me ceremony, restraint and reverence in order to pass that on to others. It's so important now more than ever to remember the sacredness of all plant medicine and that they each hold a power that can destroy you or Heal you (or both).
Most of the time when I am teaching a class or drumming for a group, spirit keeps me here in the room in order to watch over everyone and to keep the energy in the room anchored. Sometimes I am taken away on my own journey. This was one of those times.
There was a quick transition from listening to my drum to walking up through the clouds. I had merged with Puma and I could see the silhouette of my guide Dancing Raven. He looked huge and powerful. We broke through the clouds and popped into space. We soared higher and higher until we slammed into a neutron star. The brightness faded as we floated a few layers into the star. There in the middle of the star was a pulsing crystal city. My excitement grew as Dancing Raven led me in a procession through a crystal temple. He would squeeze my hand when I would start to narrate or analyze what I was seeing. “Stay here, be present” he said. Wolf was with me, walking on my left side as usual. As I looked around there were many animal spirits present in this crystal city. I was then placed on a crystal throne and a cap made of crystals was placed on my head. I became aware of being in many dimensions at once and my body in the physical world began to buzz at a high frequency. Dancing Raven knelt before me and placed his hands on my feet to balance the energy of the crystals. My body buzzed even stronger. I sat on the crystal throne wearing the crystal cap and stared at my feet. The crystal ground around my feet began to turn to a luscious grass and flowers then it spread. I heard cheering and felt joy as this new reality began to unfold around me. Spirit said “All beings have the ability to create this world.” My soul accepted and I began to chant in my mind with the beat of my drum “Love, Peace, Balance”. My guide and I with the help of the spirits on the land pulled the vision of heaven into this reality. I was suddenly aware of feeling split. There was the physical me, drumming in the middle world, and the journeying me, with my guides and the dimension we just merged. After some time Dancing Raven brought me back to the lower world to ground. When I stopped drumming and brought everyone in the room back to consciousness I noticed that exactly one hour had passed. |
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